I recently watched the Tomorrowland film hoping to be taken on a fantastic journey into the future. Instead, I fell asleep for about twenty-five  percent of it.

Looked nice; bland story.

I would like to think that the half hour I spent sleeping during Tomorrowland was spent dreaming about this EPIC.

Enjoy!

on the look of my vaporizer rig today, by a Wasabi waitress in Tyson’s Corner mall – We even had a small conversation about vaping.  I was pleasantly surprised. There’s got to be something to this.

Not my video, but a very informative series.

Truth About Vaping – Episode 1 “Why They Hate Us” – YouTube.

Vaping has completely drawn away my addiction to nicotine and cigarettes. I no longer have a craving for what some people refer to as the stinkies. There is no more internal struggle with myself to justify buying another pack of death sticks.

I am, in fact, now at the point where I primarily vape e-liquids with no nicotine at all. It is for flavor and to feed that familiar action of bringing something to my mouth and inhaling into my lungs. It is also perfectly safe to do so; Or at least it hasn’t been proven to be hazardous.

Vaping has been around for a few years now. The technology itself has recently grown in leaps and bounds compared to just one or two years ago. What used to be rather technical and potentially dangerous (explosive) to beginner vapers (if they don’t know anything about electronics), has now given way to safety and out-of-the-box ease of use.

I am not referring to the old cig-a-like BLU or NJoy type brands found at 7-Eleven – Of which people are generally introduced to. These low end devices also generally fail at keeping people from smoking, as the feeling of a real cigarette throat hit is greatly unmet. I started with these myself. Proof.

I am referring to gear tailored more for vaping enthusiasts – The mechanical mods, and rebuildable atomizers. No longer do beginners need to learn to build; They may now just purchase insulated & regulated batteries along with a disposable atomizers that perform just as well , if not better than the older manual builds.

I came to vaping more seriously just over two months ago and the timing couldn’t be better. The tail end of 2014-to-now has brought forth many advanced products which have been flying off the shelves both online and in a growing number of local vape stores. I started off with something basic from a gas station, to something more modern and basic recommended at a local shop..

The eGo ONE is the device that completely drove away my addiction to smoking. Through that I began to explore and appreciate the flavors of vaping, and I soon learned how different power/heat settings can greatly affect flavor and vapor production. So I went a step further with a regulated battery, and an atomizer that can handle it’s power. Without any research, I’ve found the iStick 50 and Delta II compliment each other perfectly. Soon after, I’ve found that many other vapors have come to the same conclusion.

With this combination of gear, along with some fantastic juices, I am fairly satiated and could end this odyssey there. However after hanging out with more experienced vapers at various local vape shops, and watching some video tutorials, I’ve leapt into the joys of RBAs (rebuildable atomizers) with my recently acquired Sovereign RDA (rebuildable dripping atomizer – And I’ve found that it’s far more satisfying than just filling up a tank as you have even more control over taste and vapor production.

Just like any other enthusiast hobby, vaping comes with a price. And I, who works at Green Hell, can not possibly sustain an enthusiast-vapers budget. I’m happy with where I’m at now as far as my gear goes, and have also acquired enough juice to drip for a good while.

After reading all that, I’m sure it’s obvious that vaping has become borderline obsession with me. While it’s not the first thing I think about when I wake up in the morning, it is now something I practice daily and do very much enjoy.

I enjoy it to the point that I sit and wonder if I should attempt to somehow involve myself in this business – Not necessarily to profit (which would be nice), but to help people quit smoking cigarettes altogether. I’d like to think it’s a noble action to undertake.

I firmly believe that vaping is for the cessation of smoking. People, particularly teens & young adults should not be introduced to vaping, let alone smoking tobacco. However if they are, then vaping should be the route that they journey on.

Whether it’s creating my own line of e-liquids – Flavors that I would love to vape myself, and/or create my own line of accessories or tanks and mods; There is definitely a lot of research and development to be done. But there are also some great stories in vaping that I find rather inspirational.

I have some ideas. I have some skills.

And I know my interest and passion grows with each vape.

Developing products seems like the logical next step in this vaping odyssey.

This past week my phone was suddenly chiming with numerous eBay sales alerts. It turns out I sold twenty-four items in the span of perhaps ten minutes.

While that would normally be outstanding, I’m sorry to report that I have but one single item for sale on my account – And it wasn’t a lot of limited edition Star Wars toys that go for thousands of dollars.

Somehow my eBay account was hacked.

I immediately went into my account overview and found I couldn’t get in via web browser, nor the phone App. Upon checking my e-mail, I noticed a password change to my eBay account (that I didn’t initiate) had gone through.

The joker, whomever it is, got in, changed my password, and proceeded to make a lot of listings under my handle.

Went back to the eBay site, and after a really unnecessary search, I found their support phone number. Thankfully the helpline operates until 10pm PST. My phone was still chiming sales as I spoke to the tech and reported what was happening.

After I ID’d myself, she saw what was happening, and put a stop to it right away – Including macro-mailing all the sales winners and explaining what was happening. I was put on hold several times with short perhaps two minute intervals.

After everything was fixed on her end, she then aided me on recovering my account, including password changes, sales history verification etc. It was fairly painless.

I spent the next half hour or so changing passwords on … well, everything. I have no idea how someone hacked my account, but it spooked me for sure. It reminded me to take internet security more seriously. This could have ended very very badly.

“Cheers!” to eBay for their swift action in halting the false listings and sales and for recovering my account.

I think need a vacation from everything and everyone. Haven’t had any real alone time, let alone social building time in what feels like years. And my body continues to ache daily from working at Green Hell, even on days off.

I’ve lately found it difficult to asleep. Have gone back to using Niquil. And I dread having to wake knowing the next day will full of pain and exhaustion for bread crumbs in wages. Sigh… What’s wrong with me? Plenty.

My cousin Melanie Omega (Connor) has recently started a business in card readings. I am very proud of her as it seems she has found her calling in life.

Universal Cards – “which incorporates aspects of classic Tarot and Animal Medicine cards.”

To be honest, I’m skeptical of such things. However she has done several of these readings for me over the last couple of years, and I can’t help but be intrigued by how closely the results reflect me.

This is the most recent reading.

“I drew four cards for you to process where you are at this point in your journey.  the first two cards each represent a strength, the third card represents something working against you, and the fourth is an overlooked advantaged. strength:  The Moon/Frog     Pay attention to your own intuition at this time.  There may be instances of insincerity by others; remember this world is an illusion and many people in it are hiding their true intentions.  Trust yourself, listen to your dreams, honor your feelings.  Frog represents cleansing and urges to express our feelings.  Tears, for example, cleanse the soul.  Take time out to be alone with yourself, and allow yourself to refill your energy.  Let clear energy replace the mud cluttering your thoughts or feelings.  Rid yourself of any place, person, or thing that is muddying your waters. strength:  The Star/Lizard     The Star card carries feelings of renewed faith and hope; it is a card of dreams and fantasy.  Go ahead and entertain thoughts of financial security, balance in relationships, and control of your life. Lizard is the dreamer and often imagines circumstances before allowing them to manifest in this reality.  Remember it is up to you to choose what reality you want to live in.  You are a co-creator of your past, present, and future; it is never too late to be your authentic self. working against you:  The World/Spider       The World signifies the completion of your journey and true happiness, security with who you are, knowledge of where you’ve been, confidence in where you are going. Spider is about being an infinite soul, and also represents language. So your message from this is you will feel fulfilled, you will find peace and serenity and also have the ability to communicate clearly.  This also denotes the recognition that you are creating your reality, and allows you the freedom to use the power of weaving to manifest your true desires. unseen blessing:  The Sun/Dolphin     The Sun represents the rewards reaped at the end of a journey, Dolphin reminds you to pay attention to your body rhythms and breath.  Your journey is coming full-circle, and you need to be prepared to start over on a new journey.  Remember that which you have learned, and RELAX! You’ve already dealt with the most difficult parts. i hope you can see the correlations between all the readings i’ve done for you and my suggestions for manifesting happiness.  thoughts become things.  let your thoughts be positive; you fucking deserve it.”

Yes. Perhaps I do.

I’m… tired.

Woke up this morning to find my (dry) weight lower than it has been in over 10 years.

YES!

“Our doubts are traitors,

and make us lose the good we oft might win,

by fearing to attempt.”

-William Shakespeare, Measure for Measure

I read that quote while looking through the Rockport Institute site suggested by a close friend who is also considering using it.

Rockport is a career path service – Through personal counseling and series of tests they are supposed to help you figure out the right type of career for you. Apparently it’s used all classes and ages-For those who are trying to get it together, and/or for those who may be comfortable, but lack fulfillment from their current career.

I am in another transition in life. The landlords in Fairfax decided (fairly) to not renew our contract in renting their basement in favor of their relatives. They did give us ample time to move. No ill will towards them at all.

Now mother and I are living in Burke, Virginia down the road from Fairfax along with my sister and her husband/brother-in-law. Mother, who is now in far better condition is welcome to stay with them. I am also welcome for the time being, but am paying for rent. Fair is fair. However I am being… shoehorned (more or less) to leave by the beginning of next year. Fair is fair.

I am still unfortunately working part-time at Green Hell. The management there is not doing a great job of keeping an efficient workflow. We simply need more people other than myself, and one other to unload freight. Because of that job being grossly undermanned, my body is paying for it. Just as was at my first Green Hell working experience in South San Francisco, my whole body aches-Particularly my forearms and hands. Unloading freight and stocking heavy items for one day destroys my body for the rest of the week. By the time the next shipment arrives, I feel that I haven’t really recovered, so the pain is now constant-And it has been like that for months now.

It hurts to grip, let alone lift even light items. I wake up in the middle of my slumber with numb or burning sensations in my hands and forearms. My legs and back constantly ache as well. Of course I’m still getting paid at minimum wage.

I am thoroughly unhappy with this job. The co-workers are nice enough, but I feel my time at Green Hell is coming to a close very soon. The payrate is not worth the pain, nor is stress and oft time humility of cashiering. I’ve come close to walking out multiple times due to rude and obnoxious customers who are full of prejudice and zero respect. It has become harder for me to put on fake niceties of welcoming and helpful store clerk.

I need to find something else quickly or I will break something.

I still don’t fully know what I want to do, or realize exactly what I’m capable of, but that’s why such a company like Rockport exists-And it may well be the answer to my wants and needs.

However, it will of course come at a somewhat steep price for their services; Well steep for me anyway. They say 90% of their clients/students do meet their goals-14,000+ successful and strong, including Fortune 500 CEOs, entrepreneurs, there’s even endorsements by presidents.

Of course I do have my doubts, and that brings us back to the Shakespeare quote at the top.

I feel like I’ve lost so much; Then again, I never had much of anything to begin with.

There is a book called The Pathfinder written by the founder of the Rockport Institute, Nicholas Lore. Perhaps I should take a peek at that before I commit hundreds.

I am starting another overnight stocking shift at Green Hell in an hour or so, and I’m dreading it already.

Here comes more pain.